Bork Slowly Borking

 Sleeping very long. Yesterday, I am not even sure. I know that I slept for 17 hours with a break right in the middle of an hour or so to knock up a pollution bloom map. And then went back to sleep. I would take a guess I am somewhere around a 75:25 split at the minimum. 18 hours down, 6 hours up. But the 6 hours is not in a single block. It's sporadic. Bathroom, water. awake for a short while. Sleep. ( albeit yesterday it was a lot more sleep than 18 hours in a 24 hour period ) I am not getting anything close to feeling awake and rested. Anytime I stop for a moment I get a hard tug towards sleep. Like if you were always super tired. Also on top of this, I am not feeling well. I am just about keeping the nausea within bounds - it's not getting critical, but it's often the background noise which also pushes me into sleep. Living with it is unpleasant. Sleep takes it away. I am just.. letting it do what it's going to do. So far I have not spiralled into a hopeless depress...

 Revisiting some hashed out things already. But. I had a bit of a revelation the other day. That neural nets, our brain, LLMs are just a way to store compressed data. aka I'm not special. No one is God's special child. The idea is this - If you have a system that has a "need" to store information about itself and its environment, how would it do that. At a naive first pass you can store on a 1:1 basis. Each piece of information you get. You store. But. This is almost instantly unserviceable. It doesn't scale. A brain store to hold a set of information would be so large to be unmoveable, not to mention its calorific cost would exceed any lifeforms capability to obtain that. You cannot store information at 1:1 If you are going to store information it  must  be compressed.  One way to do this. Push information into a higher dimensional space.  Imagine. 100 bits of information in a line. To store 100 bits of information you need 100 bits. 1:1. Let us push that into ...

  Can't stop sleeping. At best I have an up period of a few hours, play a couple of games with a friend and then I crash out again. Sleep. At worst, I go into a sleep cycle, come out of it, refresh my water, bathroom, maybe have something small to eat. Watch something on the TV and within 45 minutes to an hour I am into another sleep cycle. Sleeping all around the hours. The days are whizzing by. This is just a super hyped up version of what I have been dealing with since 2020. My window of uptime has steadily shrunk. So that now, the "two" days a week I work, feels impossible, has dwindled in actuality beyond that. And the rest of my time, most of the time, is spent in a cocoon of rest. "Rest". A twisted form of downtime in which no actual rest occurs, but you remain locked in that space incapable of anything else. There are flashes and spates of activity in there. Some days I can get some groceries in. Some days I can play games for longer. But th...