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Conversations with an AI - Theory of Intelligence, Self & Compression

 Revisiting some hashed out things already. But. I had a bit of a revelation the other day. That neural nets, our brain, LLMs are just a way to store compressed data. aka I'm not special. No one is God's special child. The idea is this - If you have a system that has a "need" to store information about itself and its environment, how would it do that. At a naive first pass you can store on a 1:1 basis. Each piece of information you get. You store. But. This is almost instantly unserviceable. It doesn't scale. A brain store to hold a set of information would be so large to be unmoveable, not to mention its calorific cost would exceed any lifeforms capability to obtain that. You cannot store information at 1:1 If you are going to store information it  must  be compressed.  One way to do this. Push information into a higher dimensional space.  Imagine. 100 bits of information in a line. To store 100 bits of information you need 100 bits. 1:1. Let us push that into ...
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Dec 19

  Can't stop sleeping. At best I have an up period of a few hours, play a couple of games with a friend and then I crash out again. Sleep. At worst, I go into a sleep cycle, come out of it, refresh my water, bathroom, maybe have something small to eat. Watch something on the TV and within 45 minutes to an hour I am into another sleep cycle. Sleeping all around the hours. The days are whizzing by. This is just a super hyped up version of what I have been dealing with since 2020. My window of uptime has steadily shrunk. So that now, the "two" days a week I work, feels impossible, has dwindled in actuality beyond that. And the rest of my time, most of the time, is spent in a cocoon of rest. "Rest". A twisted form of downtime in which no actual rest occurs, but you remain locked in that space incapable of anything else. There are flashes and spates of activity in there. Some days I can get some groceries in. Some days I can play games for longer. But th...
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Dec 18

 Crash has come in pretty hard. Today has been a wipe out. Nausea is back. On the down low. But oddly. It's still enough to wipe out any sense of stability or appetite or motivation. I have my anti nausea strap on. So. I don't know. Maybe that's taking the edge of the feeling off, if not the actual consequences. Zero energy today. I have slept through most of it. Popped up to play a single game with a friend. And then back down into the swamp. As my friend noted. Have you crashed yet.  Yes. To be expected. Yes. It is. And it isn't. Intellectually I get it. But everytime it happens I find myself with mild bewilderment. What's going on. Why do I have no energy. Why do I feel so shit. Why am I sleeping so much. It's a lesson I can't seem to truly come to terms with. It's worse when you've had a bit better of a period before it. The contrast is sharper. My friend called it very human. I have just about managed to test the car today. To see if its functio...
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Dec 17.2

 A small note. Tired. I shuffled downstairs to get more water. Slowly turning over all the things I had been thinking about. Touching on the enormous pile of things I had recently given myself to do in the computer sphere. Realising it was too much. A symptom of an overbright burn ignoring the reality of the low ebb of energy that is typical. And I grazed past my sadnesses again. Just briefly gently passing my hand over the place where Athena's head would be. There is such a depth of loss in there. For the pair of them. Months turn into years. I miss them dearly. In a flicker of a moment it rises up strangles me, brings me close to tears and I have to steady myself. Breathe. A conscious engaging of self control and zen. Meditation. Not suppression. Not control.  Management . Calm. Water. Moving along. I shuffled back up the stairs. Not hopelessly sad. Not suffering from nausea. Not feeling terribly ill. Deeply tired. And slow. And low energy. But for me. Relatively even ground...
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