Nov 6

 Wake up at 8.20AM with the sound of next door replacing their bathroom. I cannot begin to describe how deathly awful I feel. Shit scraped from the bottom of the barrel. I check the laptop. Set it up for work. And then collapse back to sleep.

I worked for some hours last night. I felt a little better, so, I worked.

Midday. Awake again. I come out of a horrible horrible place. Everything aches. My eyes are sealed shut with gunk. A wincing pain somewhere around my stomach like a squeeze accompanies my waking. I often get this now.

I feel utterly terrible.

I have run out of options and coping strategies.

So Trump wins with a fairly convincing win. What's the message ? America really hates women presidents ? If nothing else it's clear a large part of the US is fine with all that Trump represents. It was always going to be this way, if not now then soon. The rump of the US is morally bankrupt, happy to occupy a devoid of principles space, large on religious bigotry and hate.

The US is no stranger to dark periods. The great depression. Prohibition. McCarthy. Nixon.

I think given the times this one may stick for a while, and the US will never be the same place again.

The crazy anti vaccine Kennedy will be put in charge of US healthcare. Musk will be given free rein to pardon himself and gut the US with a similar set of results to Twitter. And Trump will graft and embezzle as per usual, fill up the rest of the government with people amenable to creating a new order.

Big yikes.

But for all the lunacy that will follow, it's not really the fault of those guys. It is the vast number of Americans who gave them their mandate, voted for them in the millions, and said, sure, we like that.

A bigoted people, electing a bigoted leadership.