March 29th

 Not too terrible a day yesterday, albeit with several bouts of tingles and waves of fatigue. Roused myself to powerwash off a bit of the back path - doing alright. Had a sit down. Oof. So tired. And the symptoms all sneak back in. It seems I have to be super careful with my energy.

Today I have taken back the heart monitor to the hospital. Barely used it - because when I was getting rarer heart blips, tbh, I was too ill to sort out using it, and by the time I felt up to it, they had basically stopped. Catch 22. Drove myself to the hospital today, first time in the car for weeks - battery was flat, of course - dropped it off, on the way back I could feel my legs getting weak. And by the time I got home I was done. Sit down. Rest. Take a nap. Eat something. Not necessarily in that order.

Sunken eyes again this morning. It slightly worries me that some underlying cause still lurks that they have missed or passed over or haven't found yet. Who knows. Maybe they will shift in time.

Feeling much more low energy today than yesterday. Need to take it easy I think. At lower points it almost feels like I am skating on the edge of getting really bad again. It feels like a pretty fine line. I'd love to know the actual timeline and things that have been going on in my body. Although a lot of science goes into it, health care still feels much more like an art than a science, just one step up from leeches with huge unknowns and struggles to even diagnose.

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