24th July
Did sweet fuck all yesterday. Slept. A lot. In the afternoon. Felt unwell. Ate.... more than 1,000 calories in a day for a change.
I have a slight tingle of suspicion about calories and how it might be affecting me. Hmmm. I also suspect sleep is super critical for me. Deviations or even a lack of an hour at a critical point can have a super bad effect. I think.
Feel better today. Went for a walk with Sam which was good. Gets me out. Different mindspace. I am very very *very* slow to comprehend the impact other people can have on my mood. I know it should be a no brainer. But feels more like voodoo than science. Can't grasp what I can't see. Which is ridiculous because I do abstract puzzles and spend a lot of time in abstract mind games and philosophies. But eh. I don't know.
Tinnitus has dropped a notch. Still there. Still screeching. But better. Dizziness has stepped down too.
Hmm.
Not sure what to make of it. Still learning to deal with this I think. Up, down, crash, crawl back up. Still struggling with the whole concept of chronic fatigue syndrome and blah. Intellectually I get it. In actuality. Difficult.
Eh well. Better day. Hooray.
Do. Not. Over. Do. It.
Yes ?
Ok ! I get it. But what if..
*sigh*
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