7th Jan

 Blep

Yesterday evening I had a bit of a wave of nausea. Mild. But. Definitely there. It went away. But eh.

Today I woke up with my left ear blown out - volume at half, dizzy, feeling somewhat grotty, and meh.

As the day wore on nausea flared up, the ache on the left side of stomach, and I started turning green.

This old shit again.

Tried sleeping some. Helped slightly. Tried eating. Helped slightly. Tried medicating. No help.

Meh.

I have run around today largely ignoring that I feel like shit and just got on with stuff. Played some games. Ran some chores. But my mood is definitely down. Patience is thin. And I am wavering between feeling mildly unwell to full on, jesus christ I feel properly lay down right now ill. Probably not helped by me pushing it. As I completed chores out and about today, my temperature spiked, shaky arms, shaky legs, nausea, screechy tinnitus, left side face tingles, bbblllleeeeghhhh.

Meh. 

So. Uh huh. Take it easy I suppose. And it should pass.

Tried a bit of streaming this evening, but, my patience wasn't there. Probably because being somewhat ill tends to focus you down on getting rid of distractions. I don't know. Meh.

So. Funny thing.

Athena is a smart dog.

She's now taken to whenever I sigh whilst at the laptop, she gets up, comes over, wags her tail, and I guess depending on her assessment either sits beside me, or, climbs on top of me, and puts herself between me and the latop - wherever it maybe. Smart dog is very smart. I literally cannot get to the laptop, she deliberately even oversteps beyond me to block it.

Therapy dog.

Such a cutey pie.

Her behaviour, of course, works. It snaps my focus onto her. Which is the point.

I mean if you want scary levels of body language, human behaviour adjusting doggo interactions, there you have it.

And my life would be far the worse without her.

Dogs are too good for us. My fear is in future we end up fucking them over to fit into some ridiculous bullshit requirement we have of them ( or decide they are surplus to requirements entirely ). I have no faith in people not doing that.

Positives.

None for today. Too. Green about the gills. Blurp. Can't. Entirely think straight.

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