early

 5am. Pain pulls me out of sleep. And with it my heart aches. A sucking ache in my chest as I wake up. That thing I've been getting for the last 9 months. Dizzy in bed. My leg twitches. Everything hurts, despite all the painkillers. So tired. Slip into a doze and pulled out again, another squeeze of my heart, unfff, and a jolt. It feels like I'm getting close. Too much strain. Leg crazy twitches again, foot contracts, spike of pain.

Hmm. Sticking this here. Not good. is what it is

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