Nov 13

 1 AM. Feeling a bit better. Again. Today I ate something a bit more proper. Some rice with vegetables and a grilled chicken thigh.

I think I have maybe figured out what's going on with me at the moment.

One, my exhaustion et al is much worse. Probably because of the other two things.

My sleep apnea is biting hard. Probably because of the other thing.

The final thing. Pretty sure I have yet another stomach ulcer. Or whatever close approximation to it I have. The thing that recurs every 3 to 6 months.

The stomach problem is pretty nasty - when I lie down and sleep for anything over an hour it fucks me up. Today there have been definite reminisces of when everything was on fire inside me nearly 4 years ago. Same kind of feeling. But not as intense. The nausea however is worse. Plus. Sleeping on one side is worse than the other. Both are fairly shit. But one side is worse.

Ok.

So. Ulcer.

I am not taking any NSAIDs. No Ibuprofen. No aspirin. I know from experience any kind of iffy stomach and you stop those things.

Second. Eat less. But not too much less. Me eating way less recently has probably exacerbated the ulcer. Too much stomach acid. That being said. I have been taking antacids. Which sometimes helps.

Next. PPIs. I do have some PPIs left over from the last medicated bullshit. However. I have also contacted the GP today - I am not expecting shit from them, but I am making an effort. If they do nothing - likely - I will take my PPIs under my own cognisance. I don't have a lot of them, but I have enough for a few weeks, which will be better than none. Hopefully the GP just prescribes me more of those anyway.

Lastly. Taking anti histamines. Which can help with ulcers a little as it tones down the immune response.

I dare say when I go to sleep this evening, tomorrow will be the same, feel awful, nausea. But. I have a plan. I have an idea of what's going on. Pace myself. See how we do.

I wish I could get timely and useful medical assistance. The NHS is like doing everything on your fucking own.

The news was full yesterday of an 11 year old from Yarmouth that ended up dying because of appendicitis. The investigation was tepid about the failings of the NHS. It took the girl something like 2 weeks to die, the NHS response was slow, confused, and she ended up dying. And of course. The initial GP response ? Have You Tried Fucking Off And Dying. Which wasted 3 days before the parent called again for a "second opinion".

None of the report surprises me in the least.

Reaping as you sow. The initial shit GP responses are standard. Sadly the Have You Tried Fucking Off And Dying seems to be the standard reaction, and I guess for many cases it's a safe bet. Either the person will get better by themselves, or deteriorate, at which point they'll probably come back with something worse, and then you can decide whether to do anything or just kick the can down the road again. Of course the problem with that strategy is you are not really doing your job, and rolling the dice about whether something is critical or quickly escalates beyond the laissez faire approach can cope with. And in this case I think that critical period of 3 days at the start would have been the difference between her living and dying - let alone all the faffing and shit responses afterwards.

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-14071501/Schoolgirl-died-doctors-missed-appendicitis-inquest.html

The NHS does just enough not to be criminal.

Last week it was about a 9 year old girl who died from Sepsis having been sent home by the GP because "the hospital was full".

I am beginning to think that having the NHS in its current state is worse than having nothing. But surely, it does some good right ? Yes. But. When your house is on fire, and you have no fire extinguisher, you know to get out, call for help. But when you do have an extinguisher, but unbeknown to you it's useless, you become complacent in thinking that you are covered. Safe. Lose time chasing a pointless service. And that's the thing. The NHS masquerades as a health service. In some cases it is no such thing. Empty. Not there. But society complacently assumes its covered. There is no need to think of providing another service. You already have one. The lifeboat that doesn't exist.

Meh.

They need to fucking sort the NHS shit out, not just shower everyone with money - yet again. Labour did that last time. And it achieved fuck all except massively inflated GP salaraies, and half of them retiring with decent pensions. Good job. Money on its own does nothing.

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