Nov 23

Continual nausea. Don't eat. Nausea. Eat. Nausea.

At times I can make it go away with a dose of antacid and not eating anything. It slinks back eventually.

Last night was particularly bad. Pulling me out of sleep bad, before subduing the beast with a glug of antacid.

I would put dollars to donuts it's an ulcer.

I really need to reschedule the GP.

Eh well.

Yesterday passed in a blur after doing all the things. I crashed hardcore during the day. Deep sleep. Groggy sleep. Apnea kicking in. I woke up in the later afternoon groaning and feeling like a car had run me over.

Paying for it.

But as early evening turned to late evening I felt better - albeit again chasing off nausea.

I slept somewhat overnight. Awake by 5am. Can't sleep. Awake. Well. Ok. At least I guess I slept some hours there.

I feel a little better. Hungry. Rare.

Couple of things -

Yesterday, after having basically been up the better part of 48 hours, hungry, I decided to throw all caution to the wind, fuck it, and ordered myself a full english breakfast. Absolute horror of gouty foods. Bacon. Sausage. Beans. Black pudding. A lot of fat.

You're going to suffer.

A day later - surprise.

No gout. Zero effects.

. . . . .

*scratches head*

So, let me get this straight. I can eat very defensively, VERY defensively, and still end up with gout. I can take the absolute piss, and not end up with gout.

Perhaps I was just lucky.

Another thing has occurred to me however whilst mulling over this contradictory set of results. This year, the raging gout, another thing is novel and true this year. I have been taking doses of supplements to cover my "deficiencies". At the same time my gout has gone through the roof. 

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

It could just be a coincidence. But now I am backtracking when I take doses of supplements and when I get gout, and, there is a loose connection there. I get gout after doses of supplements. Like. Within hours. When I forget or lapse, it gets better.

But the data is weak. I would need to test that more thoroughly. But. It has given me something to think about. I think the way to test this would be to carefully record the supplements and the gout outbreaks and then, abstain from the supplements and see if anything changes.

Second thing. Out of the blue catching me halfway through a crash cycle, the hospital phoned yesterday. Finally. Chasing about surgery. You cancelled because you were ill. Do you still want surgery ? YES ! Ok. We will put you back on the list for a free spot. Ok.

So. Surgery is back on the list.

I am surprised the NHS actually picked up on this and didn't drop the ball. I am even ok with waving off the fact it took them 5 months to follow up. The fact they followed up at all is a good thing.

Also. Why does it just so happen that everytime I have surgery, it's around this time of the year - winter. December in fact. Weird. If the trend continues - and there is zero reason to expect it will - I will have my surgery in the first half of December.

Uh huh.

Knowing my luck my surgery will be bang in the middle of fuckery with the car over the next couple of weeks.

Still.

It is the crack of dawn on Nov 23rd. And I am feeling more hopeful and in a better place. Probably post anxiety relief. I have ordered in a bunch of groceries, pre-empting my lack of having a car and getting out. My ducks are aligning in a slightly more ordered row.

Despite it being 6.30am, I have the strongest urge in my slightly more energetic state, to go make myself a slow cook curry.

Eccentric Johnny.

If I have the energy, I have learned through my illness to strike whilst the iron is hot. Don't squander windows of opportunities.

Which means I guess this morning as the sun starts to colour the dawn sky, I shall be making a chicken curry to percolate for half the day.