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 The month of rest is over. How did we do ? I feel a lot better than I did going into it. So the rest worked ! I can feel the rest, but it's not the rest. It's the diet. It's made the difference between spending most of my days bullshit ill, or most of my days not bullshit ill. I'm still something of a limping duck, the CFS can come up and kick me, a bunch of other things fade in and out, but, comparatively speaking, it's copeable with. In the coming weeks it remains to be seen if I can refine my diet down to get a better list of shit I am sensitive to ( I have a real suspicion floating around pre packaged sliced bread - it's that bread that seems to trigger me, freshly baked stuff does not ), and also very likely a list of Also Rans of stuff that is so so for me if I am in a sensitive state. Apples for instance, seem good all round. Chocolate slightly dubious. I feel like I'm just about beginning to get a handle on things overall at the end of this month. ...

 Rough start yesterday, I think the CFS squarely kicked my ass, but by the afternoon I was a good deal better. All my plans for yesterday went out the window and ended up sitting and playing games for the most part. Which was ok. Adaptable. And not an entire write off of retreating back to bed. Although. Eh. Mmm. I didn't get up until nearly midday after an attempt in the morning was like the undead rising. I think on the whole I am improving. Certainly the CFS seems to be retreating, slowly. I am becoming more capable as each month rolls by, and, the real teller, I am suffering less when I step over the line or do too much or yada. I think also beginning to get a handle on the diet situation is also helping. Everything goes hand in hand with each other, a holistic thing made up of a bunch of separate moving pieces. Mental health wise I am also doing ok, kinda, albeit, I am "stuck" in several... ADHD like places.... where say the kitchen will go to shit and a combinatio...

 Ok yesterday ended up a bit of a shit show. In the morning I was fine. Lunchtime I started my liquid only diet, had a soup. Feeling not too bad I decided to go trim the ivy in the garden. But. Lets take a quick recap here. I had probably around 1,000 calories to eat the day before. I then inadvertently fasted for 24 hours. I then broke fast with a soup. Like. 250 calories. Then proceeded to do physical work. Mmm. 1250 calories for 48 hours ? Heh. Ok. So. I was kinda ok. But started feeling... mehhhh. Not my typical meh I have been of late, nauseous et al. Different. Older. Meh. Tired. Wiped out. Dizzy. Ah. Ah ha. It occurred to me belatedly that oh, I am leaning pretty hard into tempting CFS fate here by eating like shit, then being physical. So the afternoon I wiped out. Didn't feel well. Zero energy. I was cool. I put it down to being stupid with eating et al. I debated what to do. I could. a) sleep it out. because in theory I should be able to largely "starve" for con...

 Another day, another experiment. So, yesterday, I didn't do a liquid diet after all. I ended up getting a chinese the day before, and ofc, because its a lot, I end up with plenty of leftovers. I ate it in the evening, felt fine. Rice, varying meats, varying vegetables, noodles, and even a bit of chilli. No problem. Wait. I can have this during the day, different time, test eating the same thing at a different time rather than do the liquid thing. So I did that. And. No effect. No ill. So. It's not the timing. It's not meds. Of course, we kinda have to be careful here because single tests don't mean squat. But. Eh. We're moving fast, and if necessary we can revist things to test it. Also hilariously, does this mean I need to eat chinese for the rest of my life not to trigger feeling ill. Ho ho ho. But there's a good question. What does a chinese diet lack that a western diet does not ? Which magical thing(s) are in one and not the other ? Gluten ? So. More than ...

 Another day. Another bout of blegh. Today I eschewed bread. No bready products. I had a mushroom and spinach thinger with potatoes for lunch. Small portion. Felt ok. About 3 hours later I did not feel ok. Blurp. Sigh. I gritted my teeth and took Athena out for a walk feeling shit. Whatchagonnado. The walk helped a little. But I still felt ill by the time I got home. I don't know. It's definitely starting to give me a pavlovian response to eating. I'd. Rather not. Thanks. Eh. We shall see. Tomorrow I will go liquid diet. Soup. And then try something more solid in the evening. But I also really need to eat the exact same things at different times and see if the results vary. A cheese toasty here. A cheese toasty there. Moving on. Athena was very happy and bouncy on her walk today. Skipping along. We met a couple of dogs which she said hello to. One we stopped and chatted with. Hello. I've seen you a lot. Oh ? You used to have two didn't you ? Yeah. Used to see them o...

 BBQ yesterday. Ended up going feeling slightly green around the gills, but nothing too alarming. I had eaten a single piece of chocolate for the whole day. It wasn't random. I decided not to eat. But wondered if chocolate was a trigger. Results ? Inconclusive. A bit of yes. A bit of no. Who knows. So I ate at the BBQ. Will I get sick ? Yeah. Maybe. Probably. Sausages. Burgers. Even a couple of very mild spicy things. Salad. Bread. Cheese. Bit of chocolate. No ill effects. Nada, zip, zero, none. Ok. Today I got up feeling pretty good, had some baguette and quiche. Annddd felt queasy about 2 hours later. Nothing terribly bad. But yeah. Definitely. Blerp. The usual shit show symptoms, but mild. I don't know. Perhaps it's more of a timing thing ? Not sure. Experiments left to do. Eating the same thing at different times of the day seems to be an experiment I can run. Is it the thing. Or is it the time. Meh. Onwards. Of late I seem to be in a withdrawing mood. Like. Hardcore. I...

Not really an experiment, but evidence. Yesterday I noodled around with some art, and had a tea, toast and a yoghurt at mid-day ish. Lo and behold, by 2pm ish, I started to feel off, and called an end to my noodling to go have a nap. Meh. Later in the evening I was starving, and rather unwisely decided to order myself a chicken wrap, salad, garlic bread. Which by my standards these days is stuffing my face. Went to sleep on a full stomach. Bad news right ? No ill effects. .... *scratches head* Mmm k. There are a couple of possibilities I can think of here. One. Wholemeal bread could be a mild trigger ? The wholemeal toast could be doing a thing ? Two. Timing. My digestive system is different during the evening compared to the day, and or, being very inactive/ sleeping slows down the process ? Three. Meds. Timing of taking meds messes with it all. I take a gastro altering pill first thing in the morning. I doubt it's this as those pills act on the liver and then back on the stomach ...